[i]Progress

• As my life continues, things are progressively coming along in a way.
• In my heart I still want to attend a 4 year university and live the life of a stereotypical college kid but I need to stop focusing on what I want and focus on what I need to do and sort out my options
• I love the people god has blessed me with in my life, they are the foundation in what makes me survive and help me pull it together in my harsh moments
• I need to fill out my fafsa this week so I can have a hope of attending ECPI in april, I really need to crack down on that so hopefully in 2.5 years ill have a Bachelors! and make my mulahhhhh lol
• In other news my recent pick up Copper Foams

• My next pick up is my funds is right Air Max 95

• Im starting to become a Sneak Geek again and I love it lol but onto my electronics, These logitech speakers are next on my list so I can have some force when I play the 360

• From now on Im gonna keep up with this more It helps get the thoughts out and im starting to focus more to the positive than the negative hopefully I can maintain the balance....

-outroo

[i]Recollect

• So it has been awhileeeeeeeee since idid this but ive been thru so much with in the last few months and needed to post one again....
• Went to the Army and got medically Discharged but ill be ok starting over is all about life and getting back when u fall
• It's hard re-adjusting to life back at home because isee things alot different than before...the way people act, friends and their true motives, and who is doing what with their life. iMiss my Battle Buddies im not gonna lie they became my family in ever bit of a month and half that iwas at basic, we looked out for each other.
• iWonder where God is leading me in life if that wasn't my destined path? ihave my assumptions...im maybe meant for more? or something imust overcome mentally before ican continue in life but if he wants to challenge me mentally im losing the battle...
• iLost a great friend on the 1st of the month...Jerrod imiss u so much my dear friend. iAdmit im still grieving there is not 1 day that goes by that idont think about what happened that night, iwant answers but will iever get them? Everytime iget mad or depressed igo to the crash sight and let it all out, scream, yell, cry, or even silence its part of the process for healing......
• My squad is my life Shae, Marcus, Bryan, Greg, Xavier, Buddha (skidmark insider) we have all been there for each other since the accident and been tight since...ithink Jerrod had this planned to bring us all together lol idont know what iwould do without these peeps when iwas at my worst and ialmost lost myself to the darkness they pulled me out and im greatful for them
• since ihave been home friends hace come and gone but its part of life and im not worried changes needed to be made, People say since ibeen home...True but for the better, itake no bull off of no one and if u wasnt there when ineeded u the most y igotta reach out right? I dont have time for it life is short every decision counts.
• I see things alot clearer now than idid before iwas so oblivious to the lies and deceit but nah never again but my bro Damien mannn thanks alot for giving me the wake up call ineeded and u havent gave up on me either and iappreciate that
• And a lovely lady has entered my life and she makes me happy everytime italk to her ilove her randomness her intelligence everything about her she is like a female version of me ithought inever would have met someone like me its uncanny
• Im bruised right now but iaint broken thats for sure its all apart of healing and starting anew and icant complain life as a young adult is something new but its a risk and challenge im willing to take :)

-Oh btw blog is about to be under construction and more vivid than before

[i]Depart.....

• Today is the day where it all begins....wish me luck and ill be home for the holidays not saying when tho! ill miss and love yall

-Peace & Love

[i]Geek

• so its 3:40 am and icant sleep
• friday was a blower but it ended very well
• but im sittin here on youtube gettin my tech geek on and lookin at videos of Mac setups which are pretty sweet (if some of u dont know im a big tech geek at heart iLove electronics)
• iDream of these things on a daily because 1 day iknow ill be living a life where ican buy what iwant with a problem....put it this way igot my money spent in my head....damn shame rite? lol
• ive always wanted a macbook laptop....a series of top notch laptops by Apple such beautiful creations lol
• iswear if apple didnt create the ipod id be SOL because ipod is my counselor
• but ijust thought id do 1 for the nite peace & love

[i]Emphasize

• So its def been years since ibeen on this but ihad to return....
• alot has changed but it was much needed change tho...
• iAm about a month and a half away from leaving for bootcamp and im kinda excited but at the same time idont know what to expect?
• FACT: me and my mother's relationship is dwindling...our chemistry isnt there anymore alot of stuff thats been goin on is aggravating the hell outta me
• iAlready cant wait to come home for Christmas Exodus so ican see every1 and get my damn iPhone 3GS (IT WILL BE MINE!) lol
• iStayed at VCU for the weekend wit my long time friend C Ward had a blast got a good taste of the city...literally because igot a parking ticket fun fun fun! in a damn PARKING GARAGE!
• The Blueprint 3 is so hard to me ilove damn near every track on it (Empire State of Mind being the favorite track)
• iHave also been listenin to Hov's Reasonable Doubt album alot good ish for reel
• The VMA's blew my damn mind...Kanye being drunk was not a good look and Lil Mama being rude ruining my fav song performance was rude she def was "T-Paining rite now" like Hov said lol
• my time here is running out and it is hard to believe but everything happens for a reason so im excited to begin my life and let god stear the way im ready for this journey that lies ahead...

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Quote of the day: "its not about where u go in life, its the experiences u learn from life itself to make it all worth while"

[i]Honor

• Mannnnnn Music will never be the same
• I cant believe he has passed on but ibeen jammin to his hit all day and nite P.Y.T., Remember the Time, & Rock With You Being my favorites and of course Thriller! but MJ u will be missed thank u for makin that good real music
• My Army training is coming along and each day im so much the happier until 110409 gets here

[i]Insomniac

• so its now 5:12am and icant sleep......
• but ibeen listenin to music all nite especially that Curren$y LP that Dre got me hooked on...and icant wait for Maxwell LP to drop its gonna be somethin serious ialready know iexpect none the less 
• but iThink icant sleep because...igot too much on my mind mainly my army stuff it isnt stressful but that whole thought of gettin deployed ....(if iDo) it depends ijust pray god stay on my side at all times 

This Aint No Mixtape

these would be the favs